Random Vent

Do you ever have one of those days you want to stay in bed all day? That you just wish you could sneak a way from the world?
Today I felt that way. I could have laid in my bed and cried all day today. Big, fat, ugly tears. It is a Monday after all.

The doctor's called me today to let me know my kidneys levels were continuing to rise and they needed me to go see a different specialist. Of course I immediately think the worst. Why do I do this? I am such a worry wart. I think that is what I am looking older than my age. I seriously stress over things before I even know if I should stress. 

Today any of us could take our last breath. Have we told everyone that we love them. Have we done everything we wanted too. In my case I know I haven't. I wonder if being a mom makes me think of these things. What if something happened and I couldn't be there when my little girl needed me. Would I know? No. I wouldn't but she would.

I need to put everything in the Lord's hands. I need to quit stressing and enjoy today. Today, I watched Josh and Sprout cuddle on the couch and watch ESPN. I heard my daughter's laughter and I spent time playing and reading with her. I talked to my grandmother who is sick with pneumonia and hasn't been feeling well. I realize that among all the bad things happening in life there are some wonderful things happening.

Everyday we hear horrible crimes of what has happened around us and once in a blue moon the news will share something positive. Those are the things I want to hear. That when our country is fighting and nothing is going right, love is still occurring. Love will conquer all things.

Today, we should focus on something good that hashappened.

Blessings always
Megan