My dearest Sprout,
It seems like just yesterday we were bringing you in to this world. You are our miracle. A blessing from God. Arriving at the hospital on August 12th, 2014 with the worst headache of my life and leaving on the 16th with you. Once, we arrived at the hospital we found out that I had developed preeclampsia. I was scared beyond belief. The doctors told me that they needed to induce me. They tried, everything that they could to get me to dilate, even resorting to a foley bulb. I never got passed 1 centimeter but my blood pressure went through the roof. I was drifting off in to lala land. Your heart rate was dropping extremely low. Soon the doctors were rushing in to break my water and rush me in to an emergency C-section. Your daddy has this feeling from the beginning that I would need a C-section but I wanted to try and have you vaginally. I did receive an epidural and I also got a shot when we discovered I had group b strep.
In the delivery room, your daddy was beside me but I didn't know it until the end. They had me on a magnesium drip and I had such a hard time with that. Soon, I heard you cry and the doctors called you a "Little Diva", your daddy was taking pictures. I didn't get to see you at first but daddy did show me a picture of you. I was so excited. Afterwards we were wheeled out, we went passed your grandparents, aunts and uncles, cousins and great-grandma. I held you on this journey. Soon we had to depart as mommy had to go to recovery and you went to the nicu because you couldn't keep your temperature up. I was in recovery for what seemed like forever. I was so hungry and I could barely talk.
Eventually, we both got to the room. I needed help holding you at first because the magnesium still had me in a mind fog. You were and still are the most beautiful child I have ever seen. I was so eager to breast-feed you. I wanted to provide for you, we had trouble at first getting you to latch on and your sugar dropped so you had to have a supplemental bottle. The lactation nurse worked with us and soon we both knew what to do. Your daddy did a great job taking care of both of us at this time. You had so many visitors and everyone wanted to see our little five pound four ounce bundle of joy.
Before we knew it you were at home we had many sleepless nights and you had your days and nights mixed up. We both cried together. I was so nervous, I didn't want to drop you or hurt you and I didn't want you out of my sight. All of the things I said I wouldn't do before you were born went out the window. At first you sleep in your rock n play and before we knew it the only way either of us could sleep was by you co-sleeping. Mommy was very careful with this.
Fast forward and now you are a year old! You still share the bed with me and you are still breast-feeding. You know how to light up a room and you love attention. You are very mischievous and when you are mad you let the whole world know. You love to say "Hey Baby." You have 3 babies you have to sleep with every night Mickey, Blue and Chica. Every stuffed animal you see you call baby though. You love other children and when you get excited you start to shake.
Sprout, you have taught me so much. You have taught me about a love I never knew existed. You have taught me patience, and sacrifice and I would do anything in the whole world for you. I pray daily, multiple times for you and for your future. I pray for your future spouse and I pray God shows me how I can be the best possible mom to you. I want to teach you so many things and I want to see you learn about life and experience fun adventures. I pray when you are grown that we are still close. I pray you will call me up just to talk about your day, that we can go out for coffee and that you will trust me enough to let me in on your life. Everyday, even when I think it's not possible my love for you grows. I will do my best to protect you from this scary world and when I can't I will be there holding your hand and talking you through it. I prayed for you many years and I never thought I would get the chance to be a mother but God had different plans for me. When I found out I was pregnant with you I learned to be thankful for unanswered prayers and to know that God's timing is perfect.
My sweet child, whatever the future holds for you and us as a family know that your daddy and I will always be there along with a few other people that genuinely care for you.
All my love,
Megan, a stay home mom who wants to try new products and let you know what I think of them!