I am a person who is in love with Love. In my life I have only see a very few relationships last and those are the ones I longed to have.
Josh and I have been together for four years in September. Trust me when I say that I am no expert on love. I have been through my fair share of heartache and despair. Even going through a divorce and let me tell you that it only prepared me for an even better love.
At the beginning of any relationship we get butterflies and we feel all giggly like a little kid. We go on dates and show off for each other, we try to impress each other. As we spend more time together all of the fireworks seem to fade away.
We are still searching for that same kind of love, those same firework we felt in the beginning. We begin to distance ourselves because we EXPECT something. We expect there to be these huge moments of undying love poured out to us just like in the movies. However, in real life this is not always the case. We get frustrated with our significant others because we feel like they aren't doing enough for us but we fail to see what they are doing.
It may not be huge gestures but instead you may find those fireworks in the little moments. Maybe he remembered to make you coffee and fix it the way you like it. Perhaps he keeps your car filled up with gas that way you are never running out. If he is like Josh, you may find him grilling corn for you even though no one else likes it. It is not about how big your significant other serves you, it isn't about how much money they spend on you. They may be giving you a hug when you feel like you can't hold it together anymore. This is not a competition over whose husband, fiancée, boyfriend makes the most money, or who does the most things for each other. It is about remembering why you fell in love in the first place and just trying to catch glimpses of that daily. Sometimes days will seem cloudy and gray but remember that if you hold on to each other than you can overcome anything together. Never forget to look for the small things, and give each other some slack.
Sorry, I haven't been posting as much lately. As always the day to day things in life to keep me busy or extremely tired.
Last year, around this time I made a post about how I was still breastfeeding Raelynn. I got some negative and positive feedback but really I was just telling our story.
Raelynn will be 2 in August. We are still on this breastfeeding journey. When I first started, I just wanted to try and make it to 6 months and then to 1 year. I thought after that, she would just quit. Nope, that didn't happen and she just continued and well it soothed her. She got nourishment from me and it helped her go to sleep. Now, breastfeeding at almost 2 and breastfeeding a newborn are kind of different. When she was small she wanted to nurse all of the time. Now mainly when she is sleepy, or really upset and sometimes if she doesn't feel good.
Sometimes, she will scream for "boobies" in public settings and while it can embarrass me every once in a wall, it really doesn't bother her. I normally stay calm and just ask if will wait until we get in the car. Yes, she drinks other things, juice, water, and sometimes milk, although she isn't a big fan of it unless it is strawberry. I thought I would never make it this far. I didn't really know many people who had breastfed and I just kind thought it would be easier than having to fix a bottle and warm it up in the middle of the night. Which for me it actually was easier. Yes, I dealt with some of the engorgement issues as well as a few clogged ducts but overall after the first few weeks, it became a piece of cake.
If you are new to the breastfeeding scene or only just thinking of it. I suggest you try it. It worked well for us and the hospitals provide great lactation counselors. Make sure you ask for them as they really do help. If you aren't breastfeeding and are formula feeding good for you too. I just want us all to have happy, fed babies.
I am not sure with this journey will end for us. I was thinking by the time she was 2 but hopefully she was just start to slowly wean herself. I am so thankful for this journey and the people that have encouraged me along the way.
Hey everyone, sorry if I haven't been on as much lately. I have been busy earning gift cards for my family! By doing this, I can help provide groceries for our families, took us out to eat and even buy my daughter clothes she may need. You ask, what is the catch?
There is none! I simply just do surveys everyday on Instagc! I do them under the earn tab and the ones on the main instagc wall. They also have quite a few on the adwall and person.ly wall as well.
Yes, this is legit! I just cashed out a $75.00 gift card to Walmart the other day.
If you are looking to earn some extra money you should check it out here!
They say to have Faith and hold on but how can I?
How can I hold on to something I am unsure of when I feel so alone.
They say Love but it always comes with a price. A broken heart, a blackened eye, it happens.
I just want some understanding, for someone to listen.
Hold my hand, take a chance.
Cry with me, laugh with me and let's forget the past.
Be patient with me as I will take some time.
I need to learn to be me again, I need to learn to dance.
You were so kind and the skies were so grey.
Your face was sunshine on a rainy day.
Don't make this come with a price. Don't make me take it back and have regrets.
Just hold me tight and promise me it will be alright.
The past week or so have been extremely hard on me. My sweet little girl has became really sassy.
From the small stuff to larger stuff, it has just seemed like she was having so many temper tantrums.
From morning to evening, she was screaming or crying and I just wanted to sit down and cry with her. I didn't know what to do, I didn't want her crying and mad. I didn't want her screaming and throwing things all over the house or smacking and biting me. I just felt completely defeated.
Then, I begin to really think and I had prayed for this little girl for so long. I should celebrate these moments in my own head of course because these tantrums meant I had this precious little girl God had given me the responsibility to take care of. I get to love her through the good times and all the very trying times. I get to spend each and every day with her and you know the bad times will happen but I get repaid with her hugs and kisses. I get repaid when she does something totally amazing and she looks at me and smiles the biggest smile.
There will be many more days that I will feel beyond defeated, that my mind will be more exhausted than my body. That I will want a mommy moment to just sit and be.
The great thing about being a parent is that you are helping mold this little child to be someone, to help them along the way. I worry sometimes that I am or that I will fail her but I know that God doesn't give me more than I can handle. I am beyond blessed that her daddy is in our lives and he helps out.
Parents of multiple children and single moms, you are beyond incredible for everything you do. Mom's like me who have one child and are just doing the best you can with them, you too are doing great things.
Every day won't be sunshine but there will be more sunshine than rain.
What if this holiday season we as a society order from small business's. What if we stop buying everything from this large commercial stores that don't even know you are there? A small business owner does the best they can, they love their products and they want to build relationships with you. They don't want you just to be an order, they truly want to become friends with you.
As you all know, I am a independent consultant for Usborne Books. I love this company and when I am showing you the books we offer I am not just selling to you. I want to build a relationship with you. I want to find out what your family likes, what their interests are and which books would truly be the best bet for you. When you host a party for me, I am rooting for you. I want you to earn free books. Every time you get closer to a goal, I am smiling from ear to ear because I can't wait to see what book you chose for your family. As a mother, I want your input. I want to hear which books your kids love because well my daughter may love them too. My daughter is on the go all the time but when she sees a book, she stops and opens it. She feels each page and you can see the excitement in her face. I want you to share with me when your kids loves a book this much.
I love books, I can lost in them for hours on end because I can become anyone I chose to, and I can learn while doing so.
This Holiday season instead of buying a purse while you are out and about, call up that friend who sells 31. The Mom you bought a It's work wrap from you just helped her buy diapers for her child. The grandmother who sells Mary-kay, you are helping her provide for the grandkids that are in her care. It is so important that we become united and help others. We don't know each other's story but we can become a part of each other's future and success. Let's help each other out and support small business's.
I love Usborne books, I love the quality, their affordability. I love that you can create a wishlist and share it with family members.
I am simply sharing my site in case you are interested. I would love to host a party with you if you are interested.
Let me help you with you Christmas shopping this year! May God bless you!
I am one of those people who have always seemed to search for what they are supposed to do in life.
I have wanted to be an actress, a drama teacher, a firefighter and a few other things. I guess I have always been one of those people who wanted to try a little bit of everything. Being a firefighter was adventurous, it gave me a thrill but it was also one of the scariest things I have ever done. I admit, there have been times I have thought about trying to be a firefighter again but I am pretty sure my health issues won't allow me this.
With that being said, what if I was just a stay at home mom. Would that be enough? Would that make my life worth while? I am still trying to figure it all out. Now that I have a little person who looks up to me, I want to be all that I can be. Besides taking care of my little girl I also blog, coupon, enter giveaways and I am a Usborne Consultant. I also do a lot of random things online. Why? I am simply trying to do the best I can.
What if my little girl grows up and decides she just wants to be a mom? Would that be okay? Yes, it would. Being a mom is a hard job or being a dad. I give props to moms and dads of all kinds. Those that work all day and come home and have a million things to do, I truly don't know how you do it. Those mom's that stay home all day and have little to no social interaction because you don't have mommy friends. I understand. I am right here with you on this path. Sometimes, it is frustrating and you want to pull your hair out, you want to have a glass of wine and a long relaxing bath. If you are like me you have a high spirited child. One that needs attention constantly, and wants to be held and not be to far from mommy, and that is okay. Enjoy it, even when you feel like crying because you can't shower and you don't remember the last time you had a haircut or went to the dentist.
Enjoy every moment because time flies and soon your child won't be searching for you anymore, they will not want to be held and comforted by you, they will have moved on to a different part of their life. While they have moved on, you may not. You will miss those days. You will long for when you baby cried for you and wanted you to rock him or her. You will stare at pictures on the wall, you will pick up those newborn clothes and think back to when they fit in one arm.
As a stay at home mom, I get to see those little moments that some don't. When my child took her first step, said her first word, or when she flings food everywhere. I get to be there to see the look on her face when she discovers something new. I get to sing and dance with her. I have this little girl that follows me around all day seeing what I am doing.
So yes, if you are a stay at home mom, while you may miss the interaction and money from a job I want you to know that you are doing enough. You are enough. Your child is looking up to you and sees how much you are doing for them, even when no one else does. So don't give up but know that it is okay to want a few moments to yourself sometime. Know that you are the best teacher and role model your child will have as a parent.
All my love
Do you ever have one of those days you want to stay in bed all day? That you just wish you could sneak a way from the world?
Today I felt that way. I could have laid in my bed and cried all day today. Big, fat, ugly tears. It is a Monday after all.
The doctor's called me today to let me know my kidneys levels were continuing to rise and they needed me to go see a different specialist. Of course I immediately think the worst. Why do I do this? I am such a worry wart. I think that is what I am looking older than my age. I seriously stress over things before I even know if I should stress.
Today any of us could take our last breath. Have we told everyone that we love them. Have we done everything we wanted too. In my case I know I haven't. I wonder if being a mom makes me think of these things. What if something happened and I couldn't be there when my little girl needed me. Would I know? No. I wouldn't but she would.
I need to put everything in the Lord's hands. I need to quit stressing and enjoy today. Today, I watched Josh and Sprout cuddle on the couch and watch ESPN. I heard my daughter's laughter and I spent time playing and reading with her. I talked to my grandmother who is sick with pneumonia and hasn't been feeling well. I realize that among all the bad things happening in life there are some wonderful things happening.
Everyday we hear horrible crimes of what has happened around us and once in a blue moon the news will share something positive. Those are the things I want to hear. That when our country is fighting and nothing is going right, love is still occurring. Love will conquer all things.
Today, we should focus on something good that hashappened.
As you all know I was that girl, the one who married when I was barely 20 to the wrong kind of guy. Fast forward and it didn't work out. Looking back now, I know that relationship was toxic but I have learned some very important things about relationships and life in general.
Communication is key in a good relationship! That is right, you must talk to each other. I can't read minds and neither can my fiancée and sometimes I get all hussy and fussy because I think he will automatically know what I am thinking. No, he doesn't have a special view into my mind that says " Hey get this girl some chocolate." I have learned that if I want something I need to actually speak up and ask for it. Too bad things can't magically appear!
So this is my list!
1. Your significant other cannot read your mind!
2. Avoid Humility and judgmental conversations.
Have you ever looked at your significant other and said " You are doing it wrong", " You are so selfish", " You have ruined my life." If you have trust me you are not the only one, I use to say these things all the time. It only calls for them to curse you, call you bad names, and for the argument to get more heated than it should be. Instead try something like " When you don't show me affection, it makes me feel lonely." Bring yourself into the conversation and explain how you are feeling. Do not attack or belittle the other person.
3. Listen without interrupting.
This is huge for me because so often I feel the need to blurt out whatever I am thinking. Sometimes, our spouses and significant others simply need to vent. They don't need our advice and nagging all of the time they simply want to talk with out interruption. This means waiting to check facebook, turning the television off and really listen to them.
4. Don't bring up things that happened forever ago.
Another thing I am guilty of. I will bring up what Josh said that made me mad last year. Simply just to prove a point or to start a argument. Seriously like the song says " Let it go." It is done and over with, why must we bring it up and rub it in their faces over and over again. Once you have gotten over it, leave it in the past where it belongs.
5. Watch your tone.
When you are talking to someone and talk with an attitude the person on the other end of the conversation is going to get defensive. If you sound depressed, or mad, chances are the person you are speaking with is going to take it as that is how you are feeling.
6. Before you scream, take a moment.
Sometimes, I simply have to excuse myself. I can feel my blood starting to boil and I know if I stand there for one more second something is going to escape my mouth that I will regret. Explain to your partner you need a second to pull it together. Maybe, for you this means listening to music, breathing deeply, saying a prayer or hopping in the shower. When you have calmed down you can go and have a conversation with your partner with out screaming your head off.
There are so many other tips you can use to communicate effectively with your spouse but these are just a few that I personally like and have learned. Communication is very important in a relationship without, what would your relationship be? Make sure you treasure your relationship.
Here is to hoping everyone has a blessed week
Megan, a stay home mom who wants to try new products and let you know what I think of them!